Yeah yeah, no personal rants in a while, ey? Guess I don’t consider my life that interesting. One major thing though, my sister that has been in DCF custody since being disowned by our biological mother will soon be staying with us for good instead of just visiting. Her birthday is next weekend and that’ll be when she gets to stay but it’ll be a surprise. My family and I all got her some gifts, even my girlfriend got her things, how sweet she is. 🙂 Speaking of which I treated my girlfriend to a nice dinner today since we’re not going out on Valentine’s Day. 😉 Also been praticing drums with my bro’s band, I am not a very confident person, but I guess I’ve improved a tad in a short time, but it will take loads of time to get anywhere near good. There’s a snow storm on its way for tonight tomorrow too, 10-15″ so they say… that’s likely going to cause a headache when we usually have practice on Sundays. We’ll see I guess. At this point I don’t much care, wouldn’t mind just staying in bed with my cold that keeps creeping back up on me. 🙁
Could be more detialed, but lazy and tired. Perhaps I’m too private and boring for an in depth personal blog. :p
Hmm, well, hello again blog. Let’s see, what is there to say. Ah yes, well the Holidays were sure fun, xmas was great, I took an old Dell Dimension off my aunt’s hands and I threw Linux on it to use as a test system/h4xb0x. Put the black Dell 17″ monitor on my primary PC and placed my 15’s on either side, Left = hackbox; Middle = winblows xp corp (mod’ed) Right = Linux server.
New Years Eve weekend was fun too, naturally. Did some drinkin’ (and smokin’), watched movies, and spent lots of time with my girlfriend, which doesn’t come often as I’d wish. On the Eve my family got together and there were a bunch of snacks to pig out on, more food than there was people, heh, crazy, but quite nice. My poor kutie was sick too, which is a sucky time to get sick, but I think she’s feeling much better now, glad to know that, don’t like her to suffer any. 😛
I also fixed my PHP CMS that got quite buggy at one point, still needs a little work but its up: Continuum, but not sure if that’s what I’ll call it. Needs content, I know, still working that out. May start by adding the old wiredcorpse contents, so I guess the site will be my more “Techy” side of the wiredcorpse domain. 😉
Seasons greetings n’ happy holidays. What a lovey feast I had this past Eve, and more to come Sunday afternoon when my family heads out to my aunt’s in the country. I saw my sister Tricia at last (Sat. Eve) whom I haven’t seen in over a year. Spent lots of time with my brother Matt since he’s been back from AZ. Had a little bonfire at the pit a little ways from where I live on Friday night, where we also ran into some other kids doing one also, but theres’ was going out by the time we met up. We ought to do a better one later in the week, though all in all we had lots of fun with the quad in the snow. It’s turning out to be quite the winter season so far. 😉
USATODAY.com – More rings and moons found around planet Uranus
I think its pretty neat how nobody noticed these extra features of Uranus until now. It is truely as bizarre as its name sounds, which is often made fun of and mis-pronounced. Its actually said as OOR-a-nus, from the Greek god Ouranos [link]
Went through a mildly rough patch with my girl, but things are back on the upside again (not that anyone cares, since not many read personal blogs from what I understand). On another note, going through a family situation, nothing too horrible, but its that my sister Tricia, who has been away with other guardians for a long period, was pulled out some time ago as the result of a dramatic epidsode that took place between her and our biological mom (I’m with my dad/step-mom) details I won’t get into. After DCF pulled her out, she’s been with an aunt, and just recently we (my family and I here) find out that she was ‘dumped’ in a foster home, which strangely enough is just down the road. I’ve kept in contact with my sister the whole time through email, and the DCF worker that’s appointed to her will stop over here to chat with us, to pretty much get to know us and check us out, and if she deems this a “safe environment” (which it very well is), she may be allowed to attend our xmas eve party which we hold here every year, which would be a first time thing for my sister, as she is usually on the estranged side of the family, her first happy holiday in some time. Another shocker, she may turn out to be my blood-sister, my only full sibling, the others being halves and a step sibling, but I always considered them equals. If found to be fact, she may even end up staying here with us one day soon. Interesting holiday it will be this year, my other brother Matt who’s been in AZ is on his way back here as we speak, things didn’t work out for him there, so he’ll be here for xmas eve as well. 🙂 Looks like someone up there is working double time to earn those wings.
That DCF worker was here tonight, met everyone, then talked with my parents. She won’t be cleared to come here by Christmas, in fact not even next week, maybe longer, because of formal stuff, paper work, and whatever other hoops the state makes you jump through. One good thing though, is that she was already cleared to be with her father (which turned out not to be, but still is in a sense) over the Christmas weeked. So when my brother Matt is here, we can just stop by his father’s house (yes, her “father” is his father) to visit Tricia, which is cool.
Woo, had a fun time yesterday, at last! Me and my girlfriend saw Narnia, it was pretty good. It truely did have a heavy Christian over in areas, but I enjoyed the story and the animals and mythical creatures. Came back to my place and basically just chilled out and ate a medium pizza with some breadsticks, that shit was good, only thing I had all day, since I went to bed at three and woke at 1pm. She stayed over night too which was a nice change, since I’m always going over to her place. I never seem to sleep real well there, plus her cats give me allergies, so definately slept better in my own bed, roomier too. 🙂 She headed back for her place this morning, has her Sunday errands and whatnot, had our long romantic goodbye… always so hard for us to part, especially since we only see each other a couple times a week.
I hate my life. I hate living here. May I some day find peace in this world with it’s singular over-bearing creed. May I one day be truely free.
Edit: Just me being over dramatic yet again, I’m not really this screwed up… honest. lol :-p
That’s part of a new practice I’m learning, (though not so new) to find a place or way of venting any negative build up before having it blow up like a bomb at the wrong time and place, and so that it won’t be a distracting emotion when I do my altar work. It’s a way for me to control anger, without letting it control me. Although, for my first attempt, maybe it was a bit harsh? I also gave no one any warning, so some people may have been offended, but what good is a personal blog if I can’t say what I want? Hope an understanding comes of this technique; Could have given a fair warning but was directed the process would not have been as effective if I waited to warn and explain it ahead of time, as this is something quite recent. Wasn’t going to do it at first, but something, namely someone, pissed me off to the 10th power. Maybe at the end of the day I’m truely nice, but I apologize; I’ll find another way next time. I do feel better now though.
What’s wrong with people in this world? What’s wrong with me? What’s wrong with you? What is wrong with youth? Why does everybody treat each other like shit and disrespect everyone. A man who calls a woman discriminating names is a fucking coward with a weak inner self that is not of a man, but of a boy, a wussy, know-it-all, piece of trash. People like this, the assholes of the world, make me crazy, so crazy I feel I could lose all control of my will and straight up fucking murder someone, no joke. At times I’ve desired to take so many peoples life, but I’m not a coward who has to disrespect or obliterate everything he hates. Most of all I hate dogmatic, self-reighteous, I’m better than you because we say so pieces of fucking shit, and I want them all to fucking choke on their own piss and blood and die the most violent, caustic, pestilent death of all time. I want to see their eyes melt right out of their ugly heads, and watch their close-minded brains boil right in their fucking skulls, and have their skin blister, pop, then dry up and crumble away, only leaving their flesh which the great black ravens will devour until there’s nothing but bones which I’ll then proceed to dance on and bash with a giant blacksmith’s hammer into a fine powder. I don’t even care who reads this because right now I just don’t give a flying fuck about nobody. I’ll mass murder the whole populous of earth at once leaving me in a lonely bliss.
Things may get a little messy this week with rain and snow. Looking forward to Thanksgiving with all the food, but have to be careful eating with my broken tooth which needs some work. Earliest I can get that done though is torward the end of December. I’ll be chewing carefully until then. I also can’t wait to be with my girlfriend again this Friday/Sat. I cherish every moment I’m with her, we’re not together so often. We leave a distance apart from each other and she’s always busy with school and work. Wishing for the day we can finally get a place of our own, but we’ve got some hard work ahead before that happens.
This is a post I made on MySpace.com/computerhacker, since this blog was down at the time.. so here goes, my Hekate night:
So I guess the night went well. A bit frustrating though when you’re mediatating and focusing or reciting something to have other occupants of this domicile (older bro primarily) coming and going and completely interrupting me. Doesn’t make the most neo-Pagan-friendly zone, and not like I could really say anything.
First off a complaint wouldn’t change the fact my brother works at night, with his girl often showing up from her job to come and chill in his room and wait which you have to come downstairs through the main room (mine) in order to get to it.- (Yes, we live in our parents’ basement, what of it?) – Just wish they’d stay at her place more often.
Secondly, no one here is aware of my affairs with occult practices – nor would they begin to even understand or take any of it seriously. To most “magic” is just a fantasy / Hollywood thing that you read about in books and see on screen and have no notion of the true principle of real magick.
I mean sure, practicing magick isn’t going to have the fantastic and miraculous results that the Charmed Ones get on the TV show Charmed. Which I do admittingly watch, but there’s a whole heck of a lot more to real magick, which can in fact bare results if done right along with enough time and pratice devoted. BUT, instead of ranting, I end it here.. for now.
Had a lil’ chat with some ole hacker buds of mine. Met on Tracejam’s server as usual. It was good to talk of old times and share new tricks and other knowledge that we’ve learned since. Was pretty cool. Also practiced playing the drums over my firend Matt’s house. Guess that’s going okay. I certainly know the bonfire we had was much more fun. 😉
I also feel quite unwell, and down about how my girlfriend and I last parted. I’m very sorry my Kutie. I hope you forgive me for being the usual silent type, and also for getting sick and spoiling our plans. Really hating myself right now.
I <3 you Jarlyn
Ah, The Eve of Hallowmas. Quite a sacred and blessed night. My girlfriend will be over soon to chill out with me and watch more horror flicks. Tonight I shall hold a ritual at my altar followed by a small fest of Halloween cupcakes and treats thanks to my love, ‘Lady Jarlyn.’ 😉 Tonight shall be great fun. May all souls pass on safely to the Otherworld. Marry meet and merry part. So mote it be.
Did a little art today aswell, which can be found at phlud.deviantart.com. I’ll try and continue my enchanted writings for as long as this inspiration lasts.
By magicks rite and sorceror’s might,
May the God’s smile on thee tonight.